Get To Know Me Tag

Hello lovelies, today I decided to do something a little bit different! As you can tell from the title today I am doing the Get To Know Me Tag. I have been blogging for seven months already, which is crazy, and I've never done anything like this. Without further ado let's get into it!

1.  Name? - Fiona Audrey Anne Mc Namara 
2. Height? 5ft1 (I'm tiny)
3. Weight? 7.5 stone
4. Age? 16
5. Birthday? 18th of August 1999
6. Girl BFF? Aileen, literally love her so much. She's helped me through more than I know, and she always makes me laugh. She is so encouraging of this blog. 
7. Guy BFF? Oisin, he's just so supportive and amazing. 
8. Crush? Yess
9. Ever fell in love? I'm not sure
10. Favorite food? Chicken Curry
11. Last text message? Ciara: where are you? 
12. Longest relationship? I've only had one so that one, which was nine months
13. Eye color? Green
14. Battery Percentage? 46%
15. Addiction? Instagram, and if you're not following me, follow me! @http.lookitsfifi (shameless self promo)
16. Favorite song? At the moment I've been loving Jamie Lawson Cold In Ohio 
17. Favorite animal? Dogs, I love them so much
18. Sing in the shower? You know it 
19. One wish? That I could get through my anxiety  
20. Best time in your life? This is a hard one, I would have to say moments when you have all of your family in the one place, family time is so important to me. 
21. Country you live in? Ireland 
22. Pets? Unfortunately I don't have any at home, but my Dad has a beautiful dog named Bruce! Who I love so much! He's such a cutie! 
23. Plan on getting married? If it happens it happens, although I feel incredibly sorry for the poor soul that has to put up with me
24. Favorite subjects? I am not good at school to say the least but I do love History and English
25. First kiss? Yep
26. Insecure? Unfortunately I'm very insecure, however I'm working on it, which I guess is the main thing 
27. Ever self-harmed? I'm happy to say I haven't. There have been times I've thought about it, but thankfully I haven't gone through with it. A part of me knows that hurting myself more than I feel, isn't going to make me feel better about myself. Of course everyone has different coping methods. When I feel sad, I'll just cry to get the emotion out and then I'll just watch some YouTube, or do something like taking photos. If you ever feel like self harming remember there are always other ways to cope, of course because I don't self harm I wouldn't know how difficult it may be to stop once you have started! You can always find something else to make you feel better, you can do it 
28. Who you love? Romantically nobody! I do have a crush but I like him, not love him
29. Miss anyone? Always
30. Hair color? Brown
31. Relationship status? Singleee
32. Last song you heard? Selena Gomez Hands to myself
33. Biggest fear? Public speaking
34. Believe in ghosts? Honestly, yes.
35. Something you hate? People who think it's okay to pick on someone and make them feel like shit. No love, sit down love yourself and don't make an innocent person feel like shit, if you don't like someone fair enough that doesn't mean you need to be an ass. 
36. Favorite Tv show? Pretty little liars
37. Favorite movie? I still love The Host to be honest, if you haven't seen it I would highly recommend it. 
38. Favorite book? The girl on the train, it was so so good. 
39. Celebrity crush? Brooklyn Beckham he is just woahhh. He'a also very close to my age, so I have some chance right? No lol. 
    
    You're welcome.
40. Jealous of? People who are good at school without effffort. Like please can I get on your level. 
41. Star sign? Leo 
42. Middle name? Audrey 
43. Worst habit? I don't know if I'm the only one that does this, and if you do this too thank god. Sometimes I pull out my eyebrow hair, which is really bad. Which results in bald patches in my eyebrows, now you know 
44. Number of siblings? 6 
45. Sports you play? Nothing because I'm lazy lol
46. Smoke/drink? Nope
47. Describe yourself in one word? Weird
48. Embarrassing moment? I don't think I will ever ever forget this. I was in my Irish class, and we had to write a letter for homework about a time we got punished for mitching school, the word for punish in Irish is Pionas ( or something like it, I don't know I'm terrible at Irish). Low and behold my teacher asked me to read out my letter. So I attempted to read out my essay. I struggled immensely on pronouncing Pionas, so instead I said penis.. yes I said penis. I stopped and my heart beat so quickly, I looked up at my teacher and his face was red. I heard some say "did she actually say that". I carried on with reading my essay as fast as I could. I literally felt like crying. Ahh it was so funny though. Going into that class was incredibly awkward for the next week, to say the least. My friends still constantly remind of of it.... thanks guys. 
49. Future career choice? Photography, blogging and maybe YouTube. 
50. Advice I would have given my twelve year old self? This is a really interesting question actually. When I was twelve I was incredibly awkward. Personality wise, clothes wise basically everything. I found it really difficult to manage everything. Puberty and everything was really tough for me. I would look up to teenagers and I would just want to be them, because I thought they had it so easy. I was always worrying about clothes I wore, at the time Hollister was massively popular at the time and I didn't have any of it. This sounds pathetic. If you've read my Struggle with Anxiety, you may know that I had anxiety. At the age of twelve I didn't know that the weird thoughts I was experiencing was anxiety. If you would like to read that post the link is here: http://lookitsfifi.blogspot.ie/2016/02/my-struggle-with-anxiety.html . To cut a long story short I was incredibly awkward. I would tell myself that you should never compare yourself to other people, because it doesn't do any good at all. I would tell myself that clothes don't matter, you should feel comfortable in yourself. Also I would tell myself that I wasn't crazy and every strange feeling I would get out in public was anxiety. Preteen is a horrible and awkward stage in my opinion. 

That is the Get To Know Me Tag, I hope you enjoyed reading this! I hope you slay this week! Love you. 

Lots of Love, 

                     Fiona x 

Book Review: Binge by Tyler Oakley

Hello lovelies, today I decided to do something different that being a book review.
Growing up as a child, I was obsessed with reading, I was literally reading all the time. I was obsessed with Jacqueline Wilson, Enid Blyton, Stephanie Meyers and Derek Landy. Catching me without my nose stuffed in a book was rare. However as I started to get older, and as I went into secondary school I found that I stopped reading, maybe it was because I didn't have as much time as I would have liked. Nevertheless, I had to do more to start reading.

One of my all time favorite YouTubers has to be Tyler Oakley, he is just so funny, down to Earth and in my opinion slaying YouTube at the minute.He has just over eight million YouTube subscribers.  If you have never watched one of his videos, please do and I guarantee you won't be disappointed. So, when I heard that he was releasing his own book, I needed it. So for my Christmas present my sister got me 'Binge' by Tyler Oakley, I was so so happy.

I got this book at Christmas, and because I am an exam year I didn't have as much time as I would have liked to read it, so since at the moment it is the Easter Holidays, I made it my mission to read it. I literally ramble so much, let's just get in to itttt.

So this is what the book looks like, I love the cover of this! It looks so personal and unique, and can I just point out how amazing Tyler's teeth are? Also, sorry that this picture isn't the best quality, my camera died and I just used my phone.

This book from what I take are some stories that have happened during Tyler's life. It's not an autobiography or a memoir. Without giving too much away, they are just stories that he hasn't told in his YouTube channel. The topics vary from relationships, eating disorders, One Direction and loadssss more.

This book had me laughing and crying more times then I can count. It is so well written, and I'm not just saying this because I love Tyler I genuinely loved it. There are definitely some serious topics in here, and some not serious. And I think that is what makes the book. You get a personal side to Tyler, a side you may have never seen before. I feel like the positive stuff and the not so positive stuff balances the book out. There are moments in the book where I can definitely relate to Tyler, he puts everything in an understandable way. And as a bonus he is just hilarious and so down to earth, I've said that already but it's so true.

This book definitely kept my interest, I wanted to find out what story he had next to tell! He has got such a lovely way of telling the story even in the book, you can just hear his voice as he tells it because it comes so much from himself, and the book just screams TYLER.

I've only been watching Tyler's videos for nine months which of course isn't a long time compared to other people. However, they have been such an amazing nine months. Whenever I feel sad or anxious I can just watch one of his videos, read a chapter in his book or watch his documentary which is called SNERVOUS (WHICH IS ON NETFLIX). Tyler's laugh alone can make me smile, it's so unique and he is just incredibly funny.
If you're somebody who doesn't like reading as in actually holding a book, no problem. You can get this book on Audible. This basically instead of having to read the book your self, you can listen to someone read it to you.
From what I've heard, it is amazing on Audible because Tyler is literally reading the story to you, I'm pretty sure if you use audible.com/tyleroakley you can get your first book FREE.

I hope I have convinced you to get this book, I just want to point out that just because I love it, that doesn't mean that you will. But if you love Tyler, you will love this.

I hope you enjoyed this, I'm not the best at book reviews not going to lie. I really do love this book.

Lots of love,
                   Fiona x

Emotional chitchat

Hello lovelies, I hope you're doing great! And if not, remember you can always change it.
I've been going through alot of stuff lately, like I don't even know how to describe it, which is a great start, good job Fiona. This is probably the most rambly and un-organised blog post you're going to see but lets just get into it.

So for the past few months I want to say, I haven't been feeling myself, I've found that I've been getting quite emotional and easily over-whelmed. I want to blame school, because I'm not going to lie I didn't do that well in my mocks and it has been affecting me alot, but there has been more than school affecting me. I've been quite hard on myself which is something I never thought I would say.

Like everyone I'm sure, I have these days where I feel like I'm on top of the world and nothing will get me down and then on the other hand I can feel like I'm the worst person in the world, and everything and anything will get to me. I overthink to the point where I second-guess everything. At these times it hits me so hard and I find it difficult to find a way to cope. These are the times I push everyone who could possibly care about me away because I don't want them to get hurt and I don't want them to know what I'm going through. I find getting close to someone so difficult, if I don't know you that well and you talk to me I'll be as nice as I can be, and I'll seem friendly but as for getting close to someone I find it so difficult. But that's just me there isn't much I can do about it. It's just the way it is.

There are certain things I do, and I'm just like girl whyyyyy, but reality is we all do things that we don't understand. I am not close to finding out who I am, like everyday my image of myself changes, some days I think I'm slaying and other days not even close. I feel like alot of people don't find who they are until later stages in life, and if you already know who you are and what you want to do, I applaud and envy you.

For me, getting my thoughts onto a page or onto a blog post is very difficult. Everything has been going so quickly and it is quite terrifying not going to lie. Especially with school, unfortunately I'm not that smart at allllll so I've finding it so difficult and finding motivation when you feel so... stressed out is a nightmare.
I feel so overwhelmed. Everything is speeding past and I'm stuck in a place I don't want to be. I hate making everything so negative I'm sorry. This is actually so difficult to describe. I'm just so uncertain with everything and it is getting to me. I just wanted to post this not so people would feel sympathy for me because I don't care about that, I wanted to post this because if anyone is feeling uncertain with their life, or if they feel like me or even if they don't feel like me but are going through something, that you're never alone ever.

Everybody goes through stuff I never compare someones pain to somebody eles's. It REALLY annoys me when someone says "you can't be sad because so many more people have it worse than you". Like let me just breathe............... pheww. YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. If you want to cry because someone ate the last chocolate biscuit, girl (or boy soz) you cry. Have you ever heard someone say "you can't be happy because other people are happier than you"? Exactly. You do you. You feel the way you want. I'm okay with you feeling what ever emotion you want, but I'm not okay with you being too hard on yourself.

I just want to say if you're going through a tough time, you CAN do this. This may sound cringe for people who don't like the motivational stuff (deep down I know you do, your secret is out). I'm one of those people when things get tough I'm just like crappp what am I going to do, and to me everything just couldn't be worse. Afterwards, I'm just like why did you even worry about something so small. Like I said of course our feelings are valid, but don't ever miss the bigger picture. You can do this, and you will! Like, if I can do this ANYONE can. Find something you feel passionate about, if you asked me a year ago if I would have had my own blog and might be trying YouTube I would have laughed at you. I was so scared of peoples opinions of me I didn't do anything. Now I still care what people think, I'm not a sporty girl, I'm not interested in Music (enough to go into it) but blogging is something I love. I'm so happy I started it. It was scary, I was terrified of what people would think/say but I'm delighted.

'If your dream doesn't scare you, it isn't big enough!!'

Do the things that give you a rush of excitement (like when Tyler Oakley liked my tweet on TWITTTER LASTNIGHT FOR THE SECOND TIME my heart is still racing not gonna lie)  and something that makes you feel like you're finally doing something you can't get enough of.

That's enough of me rambling for one day, I hope this helped. I love you.

Lots of love,

Fiona xxx

P.S. Slayyyyyyy

My Top 5 Favorite Lipsticks Rimmel, L'oreal and Dior

Hello lovelies, I decided today I would do my top five favorite lipsticks. For those who know me, you may know that I love lipstick more than I would care to admit. Without further delay, let's get into it.

From left to right:  Rouge Dior (759 Rose Palimares), Rimmel London Kate Moss (107), L'Oreal Paris (379 Sensual Rose), Rimmel London Kate Moss Nude (43) and L'Oreal Paris (371 Pink Passion).

1. Rouge Dior (759)

I love this lipstick. This is also the worst photo ever, and it is in the worst condition (kindly ignore). This is my favorite lipstick I own by far, firstly I love the color, it is the most moisturizing lipstick I own. I just love how it feels on the lips.  It lasts a really long time, and is definitely worth the splurge. 

2. Rimmel London Kate Moss (107)

I love this lipstick so much! I love how deep and beautiful the color is! At the time I didn't realize that this photo didn't focus, and it's late now so sorry about that. However, one thing I don't like about this lipstick is that it dries so quickly and can feel very dry, so if you don't like that I would definitely recommend putting a lip balm under. Personally I use Vaseline I think it works perfectly. I spoke about this briefly in my Top 10 Skincare/Makeup products. Here is the link if you want to read this: (after this of course)

http://lookitsfifi.blogspot.ie/2016/01/my-favourite-skincare-and-makeup.html

3. L'Oreal Paris (379 Sensual Rose)

This is my favorite natural everyday type of a lipstick. It is so moisturizing and when we just take a moment to appreciate this color?! It lasts a long time and just is perfect. Goodjob L'Oreal!

4. Rimmel London Kate Moss (43)

This is like the grossest picture of lipstick ever, I'm sorry. But this is the Rimmel London Kate Moss (43). I really really like this! At first I thought when I bought this I wouldn't like it because it looks very muddy, but it is really gorgeous and is perfect for a natural day. I don't find this drying at all, considering that I find the 107 drying.

5. L'Oreal Paris (371 Pink Passion)

I really really love this! I don't normally go for such daring colors, but this is so so beautiful. It's striking but not too striking. It feels really good on my lips and doesn't feel sticky, but it's also moisturizing. I really like this. 

I feel like if you are looking for a very good  lipstick, you can't go wrong with Rimmel or L'Oreal they aren't expensive and are actually very good lipsticks.And both are amazing quality. They have a really good selection of colors! I would definitely go check them out!

If you are looking for an amazing lipstick there is the pricer option of going for Dior or of course other high up in the market like Mac, most definitely worth the splurge. I don't think you can judge a lipstick by the price, I have tried really expensive lipsticks that were disappointing just as I have found expensive lipsticks that are amazing! I have also tried cheaper lipsticks who were really crap, and ones who are amazing! 

Thanks so much for reading, 

Lots of Love,

                   Fiona xx

St Patrick's Day GRWM (Get Ready With Me)

Hello lovelies, I have decided to do something a little bit different today! This could be a complete fail or it could be okay, but as you can tell by the title I am doing a St Patrick's Day GRWM. I thought this would be a nice change of scenery, and if it goes horribly wrong please tell me lol. I usually see these in YouTube videos, I'm not sure if you can do a blog Get Ready With Me, but I might as well try. Agh, enough with the long intro let's get into it.

I just want to point out that I am no makeup artist (I can barley put it on) so if I do something differently to you, I'm sorry. I just do what I feel works.

Makeup: 

If you want to see how I from yuck to half decent keep on reading!

MOISTURIZER: 

I use this to mouisturise my skin! I use this after I have washed my face!

I personally really like this, if you have oily skin I feel like you won't like this at all

because it is very oily and dewy, which is why I love it. 

PRIMER:

I use this to prime my skin! This is a tester I got from Clinique, it is so so good!

I only use this for special occasions! It is the Clinque Super Universal Skin Primer.

I love the feeling of it on the skin! And I definitely feel like it makes my makeup

last longer!

FOUNDATION:

Real Techniques Buffing Brush

I got this foundation as a Christmas Present. This is the Clinique Supermoisture Hydration Foundation.

I only wear this for special occasions! I really really like this, mine is in the shade 04 Ivory.

Which is a little bit too dark, but it's not too bad! 

If you have dry skin this is literally heaven! It feels so luxurious and healthy on the skin, it doesn't

feel like other foundations where you can feel the damage it's doing to your skin,

I even forget that it is there! AND it lasts all day! Such a bonus!

The secomd picture looks very weird I'm sorry, I just wanted to show how dewy it was! I don't have 

a highlight on here!

CONCEALER: 

These are the Rimmel London Wake Me Up & Rimmel London Match Perfection concealers. 

I really love these! I use the Wake Me Up for under my eyes as a coverage for the 

bags under my eyes. I use the Match Perfection for a highlight down my nose, cheek bones and 

brow bones! Then I just use it to cover up any blemishes! It is my favorite concealer!

I then just blend this in with The Real Techniques Contour Brush. This photo is cringe but ugh.

EYEBROWS:

This is the W7 Brow Parlour. I actually really like this. Since I have already really

dark eyebrows I don't really need any more darkness, but unfortunately I have some bald patches that need 

covering as much as possible. I use the bottom left dark shade and it works wonders.

I use the top left for a wax to hold my brow in place and then I use the 

top right for a brow bone highlight.

POWDER:

This is the NO7 Light Pressed Powder, I love this. I just put this 

all over my face just to hold my makeup in place. 

BRONZER:

This is the Rimmel London Sun Bronze 022. I attempt to bronze and contour with this

it doesn't really show up on my skin but its the thought that counts! It is really nice when I know how 

to actually use it. It's very natural and lovely! It actually makes my cheekbones visible. 

EYESHADOW:

I would just like to point out that I did aim to do a festive green smokey eye, but I'm not that talented in the makeup area. Especially with such bright colors. So I just opted for my usual with a bit of a difference.

I prime my eyes with this Catrice Prime And Fine 

I have recently been using this Scandaleyes shadow stick! I have mine in the shade

Bulletproof Beige! It is so natural! I have a swatch below! I love this concept! It is so easy to use.

Over the Eye Shadow Pencil, I used the first shade of the Storm Palette. This is my favourite eyeshadow 

palette ever! It's so creamy and lasts all day. 

In the crease of my eye I used the top colour here in the W7 Shades Of Brown. 

This is the finished result! I didn't wear any eyeliner because I can't wing it. Also my 

eyebrows are in a dire need of a wax. I went in with a little bit of mascara after this which was of course Maybelline Lash Sensational. I forgot to take a picture of it. 

FINISHED RESULT: 

This was the finished result. I added some of Rimmel London Kate Moss Nude Lipstick Shade 43.

Hair: 

If you know me personally you will probably know that I am the laziest person ever when it comes to hair. Thankfully, I am lucky to have a personal hairdresser aka my twin. She literally does everything with my hair. So I slept with my hair in a plait so it would look relatively curly. 

My sister did my hair in this nice bun! I really liked it!

Ps please excuse the current and prominent state of my bedroom ugh. 

Clothes:

Top: Because I don't own many green tops, I had to buy one. This top is a khaki crop top from H&M I love it so much!

Jeans: These jeans are from River Island! Unfortunately they are really big for me and look a little bit ridicilous but regardless I still like them alot. 

Cardigan:My cardigan is from Hollister. This practically comes everywhere with me, I should probably get a new one soon..

Handbag: My handbag is from River Island again, I really like it because it is small but not too small! Is it not also the cutest thing you have ever seen?!

Shoes: I don't think the shoes go that well with the outfit, but oh well. These are Nike something shoes, I don't really know! I like them they're comfortable and kinda nice. 

Necklace: I got this as a present, so I'm really not sure where it is from. I love it so frickin much. 

That in a nutshell is practically everything I did to get ready today! I hope you enjoyed the read, and I hope it wasn't too long and boring! I hope whether you celebrated St Patrick's Day or not, that you had a great day! My day was lovely and relaxed and I spent it with lovely people! 

 I just thought I would end this blog on a happy/silly note!

Lots of Love,

                      Fiona xx