Saturday 31 October 2015

Positive vibes

Hey everyone, I hope you're having a fantastic day, and if not remember you can change it by doing something you love doing.

My day has gone really well. I'm feeling very happy and relaxed. I'd love to be able to tell you that I studied, but that would be a lie. I really need to get a handle on things. Seriously.

Yesterday I went to a youthclub disco, and I'm not going to lie, I thought it was amazing! I have anxiety as most of you guys may know, so discos usually aren't a good idea. I would usually get so anxious that I can't breathe, and I would get so dizzy. And dancing would be completely out of the question, like no not going to happen haha.
This time I was with other people, that I felt so so comfortable around. And yes Fiona,who is not a good dancer, actually danced. Just let that sink in!! I wasn't very good mind you, but I honestly didn't care. Which is so weird for me. It was one of the best discos I've ever been to. I felt comfortable and was only anxious for the first fifteen minutes. At the end of the night I was shocked that I had actually gotten through the night with only one panic attack.

I do realise that since I am having a good day, that, that means that not everyone is.  So I just want to say if you're having a bad day, breathe. It's okay, remember the bad days make the good ones so much more special. What helps me when I am having a bad day is to listen to some of my favourite songs (not sad ones, no matter how much you want to listen to sad songs they will just make you feel worse) put on your favourite upbeat song. Seriously it does wonders. Exercise, I can't stress enough how good this actually is for bad days. When my heart feels heavy, I find it so good to go for a walk or to run. It seriously helps. So much. Also eating healthy food (I know how tempting it is to binge on chocolate etc) but food that is good for you will make you feel good trust me.

Bad days for me involve: overthinking, feeling that I'm not good enough, thinking of all the mistakes I've made and being really negative. If you're the same, I just want to say stop being so hard on yourself. It is natural for you to think you're doing wrong all the time, I think it's natural for us. (I'm not sure if some people don't think like this) but if you do, please relax. And remember you're trying your best. I know how horrible it feels, and honestly I woudn't wish it on my worst enemy.
Please remember there is only so much you can do, and believe in yourself. I know it's so much easier said than done. But it does get better, please remember that.

I know the majority of my blog posts are about dealing with bad days, and how to feel mentally better. And maybe that can get a bit depressing after a while (if it does I'm really sorry) I just can't bear the thought of someone feeling as horrible as I do sometimes. It is such a terrible feeling, and if I can help someone in any small way, that's literally made my day.

If any one of you guys ever need someone to talk to, you can talk to me, don't ever forget that. I love helping.
You can comment on my blogs if you would like, and I will help. (I'll try my best anyways). Or you can contact me on my social medias:
Ask.fm: fionamcnamara
Instagragm: http.lookitsfiona
Twitter : lookitsfifi
Snapchat: fifimc99

I hope this helped! Love you guys! And stay strong xx



Wednesday 28 October 2015

Learning to love yourself and dealing with hurtful comments

Hello everyone, I hope you are having a good day.
I've been pretty unproductive today not going to lie. This studying is seriously not working out!!!
I will get it under control (eventually).

This morning when I woke up, I checked my social medias as per usual. I went  onto ask.fm (my name on there is Fiona McNamara if you want to ask me some questions) and I had gotten a question (well more of a statement) that said 'You're ugly with and without makeup, and seriously do something about your eyebrows'. I'm not going to sit here and say it didn't hurt me, because honestly it did. A lot of people ask me, why do you keep ask.fm if you get hate, I always say that I keep it if some people need advice and are too shy to ask on messenger or whatever. I'm fine with the hate most of the time cuz it only makes me stronger. And I hope that it inspires people not to get down because of haters. 
I didn't answer the question because I didn't want the person who wrote it to get that satisfaction.  Before I did my makeup this morning I took a selfie (I don't wear makeup every day but it so happened that I was going somewhere) and after I was finished my makeup I took another selfie. I used pic collage to put the two photos beside each other, and honestly I was quite a shocked. I do look a lot different. I have very pale, sensitive and dry skin (and very freckled as well) so when I do go to town or whatever I do like covering it with a foundation. 
When I looked at the comparison between the two photos, what that person had said I started to believe. Besides the fact that they are both very bad pictures I started listening to what the person had said. I began to feel really self conscious. 
I felt really hurt and ugly. 
I then thought, if that person was expecting me to look just as good without makeup as I do with makeup they were really kidding themselves. I have never looked at a girl and said 'wow she looks terrible without makeup'. Because in my opinion makeup enhances what you've already got (I'm not calling myself pretty or anything). I am a very self conscious person, and even if someone says my makeup is too dark I worry (I have really pale skin so it's hard to find a foundation that matches) if someone says something negative about me I start to believe it very quickly amd it really gets me down. But I'm not going to let this get me down. Why should this person have a right to put me down about how I look.
 So just try to love how you look, with and without makeup (because you're beautiful with both, no matter what people say).If you're a boy that's reading this I know makeup isn't the best example of it for you (if you're a boy and wears makeup, good for you! I'm not trying to insult you if you do) but for you too, don't ever let people try and let you down over how you look.

 I don't wear makeup to school (bar mascara sometimes) just because I try and give my skin a break, and because it takes way too long. I know a lot of girls who do wear makeup to school, and if you feel comfortable in it then by all means do so! And don't let someome tell you not to! And if you're someone that doesn't wear makeup to school, good for you too! Do you, and do what you feel comfortable with. 

I'm so sick of society telling girls that they always have to look good, and that their eyebrows always have to be 'on fleek'. As you can see I have really thick and dark eyebrows. They are so so hard to mentain, like seriously. The amount of shit I get over them is redicilous. Why can't people just he accepting. Like it's my body, no one else's business. And the same goes for you, if someone is bullying  you about something got to do with your body, (or in general) and you happen to like it. Don't change for them. Chances are they could be jealous. (I'm not saying people are jealous over my eyebrows, they definitely aren't anyway) If you feel comfortable with something keep it. 
I'll stop ranting now, sorry! Anyway moral of the blog: be confident in who you are. 

I love you all, stay strong & confident! Xx

Instagragm: @ lookitsfiona 
Twitter @ lookitsfifi 
Snapchat: fifimc99
Ask.fm: fionamcnamara 






Thursday 15 October 2015

Self praise & anxiety

Hey guys! How are you? I hope you're well ☺️
My day was calm.

I know I've only briefly talked about my anxiety, but I've decided to go a little bit more in debth about it.

I have social anxiety, which is basically where you get anxious in social situations such as, school (if your asked a question and have to speak infront of people) . If you're In a shop (asking for help and loads of others)

Today at school I do after school study, which is supervised. So basically you sit in a room for an hour and a half with other pople and do your homework, basically. Today the supervisor asked me if I would leave study for a few minutes and get her something from the printer in the office. My heart literally fell, and my anxiety became a 1 to a 10 in the space of a few seconds.

What really scared me was the fact that I would have to get up infront of everyone and leave and then come back. This is one of my worst fear ever. (If you have anxiety you'll know exactly what I'm talking about).

I surprised myself. I confidently walked out (my heart was still beating) and asked for the papers from the photocopier! I walked back in and handed her the sheets and sat down again. I literally could feel everyone's eyes glaring on me. It was one of the worst feelings ever!! But I was so so proud of myself, I has done something that had been my worst fear ever since I started after school study 2 years ago!

When I sat back in my seat, the feeling of accomplishment was so great! I don't think I've ever been more proud of myself (I don't mean to sound vain or arrogant, it's just this doesn't happen a lot)

So basically what I am going to say is, if there is something you are absolutely terrified to do, I know how you feel. But you can do it. Trust me it's terrifying but that feeling of accomplishment is so worth it! And you can do it! Believe in yourself!

I just wanted to share that, just incase it would help any of you! And if it did I'm glad!

I have a history test, so I should probably go study! Thanks for reading this (if you've gotten this far, thank you)
And please leave a comment if you want, or you can contact me on my social medias! Thank you!
Ps. I've noticed that on a few of my other blogs there is grammar, and spelling mistakes, I'm very sorry.  I'll be more careful. Love you x

Instagragm: @http.lookitsfifi
Snapchat: fifimc99
Twitter: @lookitsfifi @fiona788
Ask.fm : fionamcnamara

Saturday 10 October 2015

Dealing with bad days.

Hey guys! How are you? I hope you're all great 😘
My day started out boring, just did my homework (which I still have to finish!) and sat around watching YouTube videos, (I'm really lazy).
And for some reason, I just wasn't feeling it today. I was just in a really bad mood, I don't even know why.
This happens to me a lot. I could be the most happiest person in the world (I get really hyper when I'm happy) or I could just be feeling so down (I won't talk to anyone, and I'll just want to be by myself) and unfortunately today was one of those days.
But you've got to have bad days to cherish the good ones.
I tried to get myself in a positive mood, but it didn't work that well, and even right now I'm still not great. This happens all the time so I'm used of it.
I guess it's just because of my anxiety. And my overthinking.

But my reason for saying this is if you're ever having a bad day. It's okay trust me. You're allowed to have off days, you're allowed to be moody. But always remember it doesn't have to be like that, you can do something to make you happy. Remember you determine your happiness always remember that. Today I wanted to be happy, but my anxiety got in the way. I am working on it.
If you're having a bad day ask yourself, what is one thing that would cheer you up. And do it. I wished I had done that today! But I'll do it tomorrow!

My Staurday was very chilled, but I like chill Saturdays. Tomorrow's Sunday, and I hate Sunday, I think even more then Mondays (is that even possible) ahaha. How was your day? Comment below, or you can contact me on my social medias ☺️:
Instagragm: @http.lookitsfifi
Twitter: @lookitsfifi
Snapchat: fifimc99
Tumblr (I don't use this much) : lookitsfifi
And you can ask me a question on ask.fm: ask.fm/fionamcnamara

Well, goodnight. I hope you are all well.
Stay strong,
   Love Fiona x

Friday 9 October 2015

Loosing people & dealing with bullying

Hey guys! How are you? I hope ye are all well 😘

Today started out to be one of the best days ever for me, not that much homework, good mood, had fun. And felt amazing in myself.

When I arrived home I got some news that I had lost a member of my family, it was so hard to take in  at first, I couldn't really believe it had happened.
It has only just hit me, and I think it's safe to say I'm not dealing very well. I think for anyone loosing  someone you love is so difficult, I wasn't that close to this person, but he was family.  And just such a sweet and caring person. And now I won't see him. And that's hard. Really hard. I don't mean to make this blog very deep and not positive, so I am really sorry. But what I do want to say is if you have lost someone and aren't dealing that well. It's okay! It's okay to cry, cry as much as you need, it's okay. Just try and be positive, and don't start saying 'I should have' stop. Because it's only going to make you feel worse. Trust me 😌 .
Think of the good times with that person and cherish them! Know that, that person loves you. And stay strong, you can do it.

Today I witnessed one of my close friends being bullied, I wasn't there when it happened. But I did see a snapchat of it afterwards. I hate bullying, I hate how someone thinks it's okay to make someone feel shit about themselves, just because that person is sad enough to do something horrible lile that. It annoys me so much.
I've been bullied, I know how it feels. I'm one of the worst people to deal with confrontation, if someone makes fun of me, I will smile and laugh brushing it off, but inside. It's not okay, I'll cry about it later because it gets to me. But I will not be able to tell that person that what they said hurt my feelings. However if one of my friends got bullied I would be the first person to tell the bully where to go. I cannot stand it. It annoys me so much!!
If you are a witness of someone who is getting bullied, don't just stand there. Don't laugh because it looks cool, how would you feel if people were starting to laugh and say horrible things to you!
Exactly. You don't need to do something straight away, you could simply talk to the person who was getting bullied and ask them how they are feeling. You could tell a teacher or a parent. Remember you can do something to help someone.

If you are getting bullied, remember that anyone that picks on someone is so sad, and self conscious in their own skin, they have to pick flaws in other peoples. And that's not acceptable. If I say one bad thing to a person (if it just slips out of my mouth) I will feel so bad about it, for the whole day. Even if I've already apologized. You do not have to deal with that crap. Yes. You do not. If you are able, stand up for yourself. You have a right to do so. Tell someone you trust, because no one deserves to be bullied. It's not acceptable. And remember bully's are usually just jealous. So whatever they are saying bad about you, is probably just them being jealous. Stay strong. Stand up for yourself. And believe in yourself.
I get really anxious when people start saying shit ( sorry ) to me, that I won't have the courage to stand up for myself, I try. But I just can't. There will he hopefully one day that I can. And I will. Because like I said no one deserves it! No one!

Sorry today's blog is very deep, I'm just very emotional today! Thank you! I hope this helped you, and if you would like to contact me please do! I love you guys! Stay strong 😘 x x x

Instagram: http.lookitsfifi
Snapchat: fifimc99
Twitter @lookitsfifi

Thursday 8 October 2015

Being yourself.

Hey guys,
      How are you? I hope you are all having a great day! And if not do something you love and just smile because you deserve it.

I really want to talk about being yourself. It is something that is so much easier said than done.
But it is essential. Because what is your life if you don't enjoy it. I'm sick of feeling so bad at school, because I feel like I'm a freak, I feel like everyone hates me. When possibly maybe some people  do, but not everyone does.  So basically what I'm trying to say is if you're like me and spend your time worrying about what people think about you, worrying if you aren't good enough. Stop, and breathe. You shouldn't care what people think about you, because everyone is different. And being different is such a beautiful thing.

I'm not going to lie, there are sometimes I will just compare myself to everyone else.  And I'll get myself so bogged down over it. I'll just compare myself to other girls, looks wise, personality wise, even what makeup they use (stupid I know right). There is a quote that says 'you were born as an original, don't die as a copy' I love thus quote so much!
You reading this, are beautiful and special, don't ever let someone tell you differently!
I started off this day having a bad one. And I just started thinking positively! You can do the same! If you're having a bad day, relax and do something that you love and makes you happy!
I hope this helped! And feel free to comment below if you would like!
You can follow me on social media if you want to get into contact with me! I love you all 😘 head up! Xxx

Instagragm: http.lookitsfifi
Snapchat: fifimc99
Twitter: @lookitsfifi

Monday 5 October 2015

New here ☺️

I've decided to chance my arm at blogging 😂! I've always wanted to do it, so I said I'd try! I'm not really sure about what to talk about first, I still have to get used of it! But if you would like me to cover something please comment, or you can contact me on Instagram @http.lookitsfifi (if you want) My twitter is : @lookitsfifi (I just created a new one) ☺️


 And you can email me at: lookitsfifi@gmail.com ( if you want ). If you would like to ask me a question you can, I am on ask.fm (no hate allowed) : ask.fm/fionamcnamara. (The link is in my Instagram). My snapchat is Fifimc99 (if you want to see what I get up to) ☺️
I just want to say, that I hope you are having a great day, and if not just remember the 'stars can't shine without darkness' (one of my favourite quotes) and stay strong, because it does get easier. Also without the bad days we wouldn't appreciate the good ones! Love you ☺️ X