Hey guys! How are you? I hope you're well ☺️
My day was calm.
I know I've only briefly talked about my anxiety, but I've decided to go a little bit more in debth about it.
I have social anxiety, which is basically where you get anxious in social situations such as, school (if your asked a question and have to speak infront of people) . If you're In a shop (asking for help and loads of others)
Today at school I do after school study, which is supervised. So basically you sit in a room for an hour and a half with other pople and do your homework, basically. Today the supervisor asked me if I would leave study for a few minutes and get her something from the printer in the office. My heart literally fell, and my anxiety became a 1 to a 10 in the space of a few seconds.
What really scared me was the fact that I would have to get up infront of everyone and leave and then come back. This is one of my worst fear ever. (If you have anxiety you'll know exactly what I'm talking about).
I surprised myself. I confidently walked out (my heart was still beating) and asked for the papers from the photocopier! I walked back in and handed her the sheets and sat down again. I literally could feel everyone's eyes glaring on me. It was one of the worst feelings ever!! But I was so so proud of myself, I has done something that had been my worst fear ever since I started after school study 2 years ago!
When I sat back in my seat, the feeling of accomplishment was so great! I don't think I've ever been more proud of myself (I don't mean to sound vain or arrogant, it's just this doesn't happen a lot)
So basically what I am going to say is, if there is something you are absolutely terrified to do, I know how you feel. But you can do it. Trust me it's terrifying but that feeling of accomplishment is so worth it! And you can do it! Believe in yourself!
I just wanted to share that, just incase it would help any of you! And if it did I'm glad!
I have a history test, so I should probably go study! Thanks for reading this (if you've gotten this far, thank you)
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Ps. I've noticed that on a few of my other blogs there is grammar, and spelling mistakes, I'm very sorry. I'll be more careful. Love you x
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