My Weekend Morning Routine

♡My weekend Morning Routine♡

Hello there, as you can tell this week I am doing my weekend morning routine. I for one love watching these videos on YouTube and reading blog posts routine related. I just love being able to see what somebody does in their morning. Without any more delay let's get into it!

Waking Up:

I let myself sleep in on the weekends until around 10:30 am just because I get up at 7:00 AM on a school day. I don't set an alarm so I don't always get up exactly at half past ten, but it's usually around there. 

This looks incredibly messy I'm sorry, this is literally what it looked like when I woke up.
Don't worry, I made the bed straight after. 

Breakfast:

My breakfast is very plain, just because I don't like eating a lot of heavy food in the morning. So this is just plain butter on toast.

A glass of water is so important, I'm sure like everyone else it's one of the first things you reach for in the morning. 

Getting ready for the day:

I love starting the day with a shower. It can just immediately make my mood go up, and on the plus side I smell good thanks to this Soap & Glory Foam Call I love this so much. Not only does it smell great, it lasts all day and feels so refreshing. It's literally heaven in a bottle.

I use the Nivea Gentle Cleansing Cream Wash as my face wash. It is so good. I got this as a present from my friend, and its so nice. It caters for people who have dry and sensitive skin. What I love about it is, it leaves my skin feeling so soft throughout the day and it just feels so silky.  

This is just a simple picture of my toothbrush and toothpaste, I know pretty self explanatory. Nothing feels better than fresh breath in the morning. 

I usually just wear what I wear to Youth club from the night before. So that was this lovely cropped white jumper from TopShop, and my pair of high wasted jeans from River Island, and my absolute favorite pair of Converse. In the first picture I have makeup on because I was going to YouthClub, but when I'm just at home doing nothing I'm not wearing any makeup. I just forgot to take a melfie today. 

  

I'm sorry about the first picture that you can see my reflection in the window, I only noticed it now, and my blur didn't do the best job, but what can you do. 

Sure are one of my favorite brands for deodorants, they last all day. And just smell amazing. I use the Sure Bright Bouquet it smells incredible. 

For that extra nice smell, I use Zoella Let's Spritz by the amazing Zoe Sugg. This smells like Summer in a bottle. As you can see it is well loved, and you can't go wrong with this scent. The reason this photo is so small is because my reflection was in the window again but the blur didn't work at all so I cropped it. 

 Next, I use this Ziaja natural olive cream as my moisturizer, I love this so much. It makes my skin really soft and really dewy. 

 For my hand cream, I use the Zoella Wonder Hand I love this so much. It makes my hands so soft. I have a review on this, which you can check out if you want. 
http://lookitsfifi.blogspot.ie/2016/01/zoella-wonder-hand-moisturising-hand.html

Planning my day:

I like to plan my days on days that I want to be productive or study. I find that when I have something written down it is more of a goal to me, and when I tick it off I just feel good. Not going to lie, I did stray away from this a little bit, not doing as much study as I should have considering that the Junior Cert is seven weeks away.. but we're not going to mention that. 

I started off my homework and study plan with English Homework, personally English is one of my favorite subjects and I like to start with a subject I like just so I can feel some what good about myself. I find that when I do homework or when I study for a subject like Business or Irish which I am not good at all I can feel sad or my motivation drops.

Literally all I did today was homework and study. I'm glad I did it, but I wish I did a little bit more. I wish it wasn't so hard to study. This is my weekend morning routine I hope you enjoyed it. Personally, I love watching and reading Routine videos on YouTube and Blogs, because I get to see the day in the life of that person. If you would like me to do another routine or another type of Blog post let me know. Hope you slay this week.

Lots of love,

         Fiona xx

I'm Only Human

I've been thinking a lot this past week. I am the type of person that punishes myself for every slight thing. That in its self can get exhausting. I'm not sure if I am even going to post this or not, this is just me rambling as usual.

I'm Only Human - Fiona Mc Namara

♡

I'm not perfect, will never be,

I smile, I hurt, that's just the way it is.

I mess up, destroying,

I make mistakes, who doesn't?

I'm only human.

I breakdown, I can't take the pain,

I get caught up in the mess my life entails,

I can't cope, finding everything difficult.

I cry allowing the emotion to escape, who doesn't?

I'm only human.

I'm mean, I'm selfish,

I'm cold and harsh.

I'm clingy and annoying,

I sometimes hate who I am, who doesn't?

I'm only human.

I sometimes don't treat people the way I should, 

I can be ungrateful and greedy,

Impatient and stubborn,

However I'm me and 

I'm only human

♡

If you read it all thank you! This is something I've been piecing together in my mind for weeks and weeks. I hope you enjoyed it, and remember you are perfect the way you are.

Lots of love, 

                 Fiona xx

Get To Know Me Tag

Hello lovelies, today I decided to do something a little bit different! As you can tell from the title today I am doing the Get To Know Me Tag. I have been blogging for seven months already, which is crazy, and I've never done anything like this. Without further ado let's get into it!

1.  Name? - Fiona Audrey Anne Mc Namara 
2. Height? 5ft1 (I'm tiny)
3. Weight? 7.5 stone
4. Age? 16
5. Birthday? 18th of August 1999
6. Girl BFF? Aileen, literally love her so much. She's helped me through more than I know, and she always makes me laugh. She is so encouraging of this blog. 
7. Guy BFF? Oisin, he's just so supportive and amazing. 
8. Crush? Yess
9. Ever fell in love? I'm not sure
10. Favorite food? Chicken Curry
11. Last text message? Ciara: where are you? 
12. Longest relationship? I've only had one so that one, which was nine months
13. Eye color? Green
14. Battery Percentage? 46%
15. Addiction? Instagram, and if you're not following me, follow me! @http.lookitsfifi (shameless self promo)
16. Favorite song? At the moment I've been loving Jamie Lawson Cold In Ohio 
17. Favorite animal? Dogs, I love them so much
18. Sing in the shower? You know it 
19. One wish? That I could get through my anxiety  
20. Best time in your life? This is a hard one, I would have to say moments when you have all of your family in the one place, family time is so important to me. 
21. Country you live in? Ireland 
22. Pets? Unfortunately I don't have any at home, but my Dad has a beautiful dog named Bruce! Who I love so much! He's such a cutie! 
23. Plan on getting married? If it happens it happens, although I feel incredibly sorry for the poor soul that has to put up with me
24. Favorite subjects? I am not good at school to say the least but I do love History and English
25. First kiss? Yep
26. Insecure? Unfortunately I'm very insecure, however I'm working on it, which I guess is the main thing 
27. Ever self-harmed? I'm happy to say I haven't. There have been times I've thought about it, but thankfully I haven't gone through with it. A part of me knows that hurting myself more than I feel, isn't going to make me feel better about myself. Of course everyone has different coping methods. When I feel sad, I'll just cry to get the emotion out and then I'll just watch some YouTube, or do something like taking photos. If you ever feel like self harming remember there are always other ways to cope, of course because I don't self harm I wouldn't know how difficult it may be to stop once you have started! You can always find something else to make you feel better, you can do it 
28. Who you love? Romantically nobody! I do have a crush but I like him, not love him
29. Miss anyone? Always
30. Hair color? Brown
31. Relationship status? Singleee
32. Last song you heard? Selena Gomez Hands to myself
33. Biggest fear? Public speaking
34. Believe in ghosts? Honestly, yes.
35. Something you hate? People who think it's okay to pick on someone and make them feel like shit. No love, sit down love yourself and don't make an innocent person feel like shit, if you don't like someone fair enough that doesn't mean you need to be an ass. 
36. Favorite Tv show? Pretty little liars
37. Favorite movie? I still love The Host to be honest, if you haven't seen it I would highly recommend it. 
38. Favorite book? The girl on the train, it was so so good. 
39. Celebrity crush? Brooklyn Beckham he is just woahhh. He'a also very close to my age, so I have some chance right? No lol. 
    
    You're welcome.
40. Jealous of? People who are good at school without effffort. Like please can I get on your level. 
41. Star sign? Leo 
42. Middle name? Audrey 
43. Worst habit? I don't know if I'm the only one that does this, and if you do this too thank god. Sometimes I pull out my eyebrow hair, which is really bad. Which results in bald patches in my eyebrows, now you know 
44. Number of siblings? 6 
45. Sports you play? Nothing because I'm lazy lol
46. Smoke/drink? Nope
47. Describe yourself in one word? Weird
48. Embarrassing moment? I don't think I will ever ever forget this. I was in my Irish class, and we had to write a letter for homework about a time we got punished for mitching school, the word for punish in Irish is Pionas ( or something like it, I don't know I'm terrible at Irish). Low and behold my teacher asked me to read out my letter. So I attempted to read out my essay. I struggled immensely on pronouncing Pionas, so instead I said penis.. yes I said penis. I stopped and my heart beat so quickly, I looked up at my teacher and his face was red. I heard some say "did she actually say that". I carried on with reading my essay as fast as I could. I literally felt like crying. Ahh it was so funny though. Going into that class was incredibly awkward for the next week, to say the least. My friends still constantly remind of of it.... thanks guys. 
49. Future career choice? Photography, blogging and maybe YouTube. 
50. Advice I would have given my twelve year old self? This is a really interesting question actually. When I was twelve I was incredibly awkward. Personality wise, clothes wise basically everything. I found it really difficult to manage everything. Puberty and everything was really tough for me. I would look up to teenagers and I would just want to be them, because I thought they had it so easy. I was always worrying about clothes I wore, at the time Hollister was massively popular at the time and I didn't have any of it. This sounds pathetic. If you've read my Struggle with Anxiety, you may know that I had anxiety. At the age of twelve I didn't know that the weird thoughts I was experiencing was anxiety. If you would like to read that post the link is here: http://lookitsfifi.blogspot.ie/2016/02/my-struggle-with-anxiety.html . To cut a long story short I was incredibly awkward. I would tell myself that you should never compare yourself to other people, because it doesn't do any good at all. I would tell myself that clothes don't matter, you should feel comfortable in yourself. Also I would tell myself that I wasn't crazy and every strange feeling I would get out in public was anxiety. Preteen is a horrible and awkward stage in my opinion. 

That is the Get To Know Me Tag, I hope you enjoyed reading this! I hope you slay this week! Love you. 

Lots of Love, 

                     Fiona x 

Book Review: Binge by Tyler Oakley

Hello lovelies, today I decided to do something different that being a book review.
Growing up as a child, I was obsessed with reading, I was literally reading all the time. I was obsessed with Jacqueline Wilson, Enid Blyton, Stephanie Meyers and Derek Landy. Catching me without my nose stuffed in a book was rare. However as I started to get older, and as I went into secondary school I found that I stopped reading, maybe it was because I didn't have as much time as I would have liked. Nevertheless, I had to do more to start reading.

One of my all time favorite YouTubers has to be Tyler Oakley, he is just so funny, down to Earth and in my opinion slaying YouTube at the minute.He has just over eight million YouTube subscribers.  If you have never watched one of his videos, please do and I guarantee you won't be disappointed. So, when I heard that he was releasing his own book, I needed it. So for my Christmas present my sister got me 'Binge' by Tyler Oakley, I was so so happy.

I got this book at Christmas, and because I am an exam year I didn't have as much time as I would have liked to read it, so since at the moment it is the Easter Holidays, I made it my mission to read it. I literally ramble so much, let's just get in to itttt.

So this is what the book looks like, I love the cover of this! It looks so personal and unique, and can I just point out how amazing Tyler's teeth are? Also, sorry that this picture isn't the best quality, my camera died and I just used my phone.

This book from what I take are some stories that have happened during Tyler's life. It's not an autobiography or a memoir. Without giving too much away, they are just stories that he hasn't told in his YouTube channel. The topics vary from relationships, eating disorders, One Direction and loadssss more.

This book had me laughing and crying more times then I can count. It is so well written, and I'm not just saying this because I love Tyler I genuinely loved it. There are definitely some serious topics in here, and some not serious. And I think that is what makes the book. You get a personal side to Tyler, a side you may have never seen before. I feel like the positive stuff and the not so positive stuff balances the book out. There are moments in the book where I can definitely relate to Tyler, he puts everything in an understandable way. And as a bonus he is just hilarious and so down to earth, I've said that already but it's so true.

This book definitely kept my interest, I wanted to find out what story he had next to tell! He has got such a lovely way of telling the story even in the book, you can just hear his voice as he tells it because it comes so much from himself, and the book just screams TYLER.

I've only been watching Tyler's videos for nine months which of course isn't a long time compared to other people. However, they have been such an amazing nine months. Whenever I feel sad or anxious I can just watch one of his videos, read a chapter in his book or watch his documentary which is called SNERVOUS (WHICH IS ON NETFLIX). Tyler's laugh alone can make me smile, it's so unique and he is just incredibly funny.
If you're somebody who doesn't like reading as in actually holding a book, no problem. You can get this book on Audible. This basically instead of having to read the book your self, you can listen to someone read it to you.
From what I've heard, it is amazing on Audible because Tyler is literally reading the story to you, I'm pretty sure if you use audible.com/tyleroakley you can get your first book FREE.

I hope I have convinced you to get this book, I just want to point out that just because I love it, that doesn't mean that you will. But if you love Tyler, you will love this.

I hope you enjoyed this, I'm not the best at book reviews not going to lie. I really do love this book.

Lots of love,
                   Fiona x

Emotional chitchat

Hello lovelies, I hope you're doing great! And if not, remember you can always change it.
I've been going through alot of stuff lately, like I don't even know how to describe it, which is a great start, good job Fiona. This is probably the most rambly and un-organised blog post you're going to see but lets just get into it.

So for the past few months I want to say, I haven't been feeling myself, I've found that I've been getting quite emotional and easily over-whelmed. I want to blame school, because I'm not going to lie I didn't do that well in my mocks and it has been affecting me alot, but there has been more than school affecting me. I've been quite hard on myself which is something I never thought I would say.

Like everyone I'm sure, I have these days where I feel like I'm on top of the world and nothing will get me down and then on the other hand I can feel like I'm the worst person in the world, and everything and anything will get to me. I overthink to the point where I second-guess everything. At these times it hits me so hard and I find it difficult to find a way to cope. These are the times I push everyone who could possibly care about me away because I don't want them to get hurt and I don't want them to know what I'm going through. I find getting close to someone so difficult, if I don't know you that well and you talk to me I'll be as nice as I can be, and I'll seem friendly but as for getting close to someone I find it so difficult. But that's just me there isn't much I can do about it. It's just the way it is.

There are certain things I do, and I'm just like girl whyyyyy, but reality is we all do things that we don't understand. I am not close to finding out who I am, like everyday my image of myself changes, some days I think I'm slaying and other days not even close. I feel like alot of people don't find who they are until later stages in life, and if you already know who you are and what you want to do, I applaud and envy you.

For me, getting my thoughts onto a page or onto a blog post is very difficult. Everything has been going so quickly and it is quite terrifying not going to lie. Especially with school, unfortunately I'm not that smart at allllll so I've finding it so difficult and finding motivation when you feel so... stressed out is a nightmare.
I feel so overwhelmed. Everything is speeding past and I'm stuck in a place I don't want to be. I hate making everything so negative I'm sorry. This is actually so difficult to describe. I'm just so uncertain with everything and it is getting to me. I just wanted to post this not so people would feel sympathy for me because I don't care about that, I wanted to post this because if anyone is feeling uncertain with their life, or if they feel like me or even if they don't feel like me but are going through something, that you're never alone ever.

Everybody goes through stuff I never compare someones pain to somebody eles's. It REALLY annoys me when someone says "you can't be sad because so many more people have it worse than you". Like let me just breathe............... pheww. YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. If you want to cry because someone ate the last chocolate biscuit, girl (or boy soz) you cry. Have you ever heard someone say "you can't be happy because other people are happier than you"? Exactly. You do you. You feel the way you want. I'm okay with you feeling what ever emotion you want, but I'm not okay with you being too hard on yourself.

I just want to say if you're going through a tough time, you CAN do this. This may sound cringe for people who don't like the motivational stuff (deep down I know you do, your secret is out). I'm one of those people when things get tough I'm just like crappp what am I going to do, and to me everything just couldn't be worse. Afterwards, I'm just like why did you even worry about something so small. Like I said of course our feelings are valid, but don't ever miss the bigger picture. You can do this, and you will! Like, if I can do this ANYONE can. Find something you feel passionate about, if you asked me a year ago if I would have had my own blog and might be trying YouTube I would have laughed at you. I was so scared of peoples opinions of me I didn't do anything. Now I still care what people think, I'm not a sporty girl, I'm not interested in Music (enough to go into it) but blogging is something I love. I'm so happy I started it. It was scary, I was terrified of what people would think/say but I'm delighted.

'If your dream doesn't scare you, it isn't big enough!!'

Do the things that give you a rush of excitement (like when Tyler Oakley liked my tweet on TWITTTER LASTNIGHT FOR THE SECOND TIME my heart is still racing not gonna lie)  and something that makes you feel like you're finally doing something you can't get enough of.

That's enough of me rambling for one day, I hope this helped. I love you.

Lots of love,

Fiona xxx

P.S. Slayyyyyyy