Wednesday 30 March 2016

Book Review: Binge by Tyler Oakley

Hello lovelies, today I decided to do something different that being a book review.
Growing up as a child, I was obsessed with reading, I was literally reading all the time. I was obsessed with Jacqueline Wilson, Enid Blyton, Stephanie Meyers and Derek Landy. Catching me without my nose stuffed in a book was rare. However as I started to get older, and as I went into secondary school I found that I stopped reading, maybe it was because I didn't have as much time as I would have liked. Nevertheless, I had to do more to start reading.

One of my all time favorite YouTubers has to be Tyler Oakley, he is just so funny, down to Earth and in my opinion slaying YouTube at the minute.He has just over eight million YouTube subscribers.  If you have never watched one of his videos, please do and I guarantee you won't be disappointed. So, when I heard that he was releasing his own book, I needed it. So for my Christmas present my sister got me 'Binge' by Tyler Oakley, I was so so happy.

I got this book at Christmas, and because I am an exam year I didn't have as much time as I would have liked to read it, so since at the moment it is the Easter Holidays, I made it my mission to read it. I literally ramble so much, let's just get in to itttt.





So this is what the book looks like, I love the cover of this! It looks so personal and unique, and can I just point out how amazing Tyler's teeth are? Also, sorry that this picture isn't the best quality, my camera died and I just used my phone.

This book from what I take are some stories that have happened during Tyler's life. It's not an autobiography or a memoir. Without giving too much away, they are just stories that he hasn't told in his YouTube channel. The topics vary from relationships, eating disorders, One Direction and loadssss more.

This book had me laughing and crying more times then I can count. It is so well written, and I'm not just saying this because I love Tyler I genuinely loved it. There are definitely some serious topics in here, and some not serious. And I think that is what makes the book. You get a personal side to Tyler, a side you may have never seen before. I feel like the positive stuff and the not so positive stuff balances the book out. There are moments in the book where I can definitely relate to Tyler, he puts everything in an understandable way. And as a bonus he is just hilarious and so down to earth, I've said that already but it's so true.

This book definitely kept my interest, I wanted to find out what story he had next to tell! He has got such a lovely way of telling the story even in the book, you can just hear his voice as he tells it because it comes so much from himself, and the book just screams TYLER.

I've only been watching Tyler's videos for nine months which of course isn't a long time compared to other people. However, they have been such an amazing nine months. Whenever I feel sad or anxious I can just watch one of his videos, read a chapter in his book or watch his documentary which is called SNERVOUS (WHICH IS ON NETFLIX). Tyler's laugh alone can make me smile, it's so unique and he is just incredibly funny.
If you're somebody who doesn't like reading as in actually holding a book, no problem. You can get this book on Audible. This basically instead of having to read the book your self, you can listen to someone read it to you.
From what I've heard, it is amazing on Audible because Tyler is literally reading the story to you, I'm pretty sure if you use audible.com/tyleroakley you can get your first book FREE.

I hope I have convinced you to get this book, I just want to point out that just because I love it, that doesn't mean that you will. But if you love Tyler, you will love this.

I hope you enjoyed this, I'm not the best at book reviews not going to lie. I really do love this book.

Lots of love,
                   Fiona x

Saturday 26 March 2016

Emotional chitchat

Hello lovelies, I hope you're doing great! And if not, remember you can always change it.
I've been going through alot of stuff lately, like I don't even know how to describe it, which is a great start, good job Fiona. This is probably the most rambly and un-organised blog post you're going to see but lets just get into it.

So for the past few months I want to say, I haven't been feeling myself, I've found that I've been getting quite emotional and easily over-whelmed. I want to blame school, because I'm not going to lie I didn't do that well in my mocks and it has been affecting me alot, but there has been more than school affecting me. I've been quite hard on myself which is something I never thought I would say.

Like everyone I'm sure, I have these days where I feel like I'm on top of the world and nothing will get me down and then on the other hand I can feel like I'm the worst person in the world, and everything and anything will get to me. I overthink to the point where I second-guess everything. At these times it hits me so hard and I find it difficult to find a way to cope. These are the times I push everyone who could possibly care about me away because I don't want them to get hurt and I don't want them to know what I'm going through. I find getting close to someone so difficult, if I don't know you that well and you talk to me I'll be as nice as I can be, and I'll seem friendly but as for getting close to someone I find it so difficult. But that's just me there isn't much I can do about it. It's just the way it is.

There are certain things I do, and I'm just like girl whyyyyy, but reality is we all do things that we don't understand. I am not close to finding out who I am, like everyday my image of myself changes, some days I think I'm slaying and other days not even close. I feel like alot of people don't find who they are until later stages in life, and if you already know who you are and what you want to do, I applaud and envy you.

For me, getting my thoughts onto a page or onto a blog post is very difficult. Everything has been going so quickly and it is quite terrifying not going to lie. Especially with school, unfortunately I'm not that smart at allllll so I've finding it so difficult and finding motivation when you feel so... stressed out is a nightmare.
I feel so overwhelmed. Everything is speeding past and I'm stuck in a place I don't want to be. I hate making everything so negative I'm sorry. This is actually so difficult to describe. I'm just so uncertain with everything and it is getting to me. I just wanted to post this not so people would feel sympathy for me because I don't care about that, I wanted to post this because if anyone is feeling uncertain with their life, or if they feel like me or even if they don't feel like me but are going through something, that you're never alone ever.

Everybody goes through stuff I never compare someones pain to somebody eles's. It REALLY annoys me when someone says "you can't be sad because so many more people have it worse than you". Like let me just breathe............... pheww. YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. If you want to cry because someone ate the last chocolate biscuit, girl (or boy soz) you cry. Have you ever heard someone say "you can't be happy because other people are happier than you"? Exactly. You do you. You feel the way you want. I'm okay with you feeling what ever emotion you want, but I'm not okay with you being too hard on yourself.

I just want to say if you're going through a tough time, you CAN do this. This may sound cringe for people who don't like the motivational stuff (deep down I know you do, your secret is out). I'm one of those people when things get tough I'm just like crappp what am I going to do, and to me everything just couldn't be worse. Afterwards, I'm just like why did you even worry about something so small. Like I said of course our feelings are valid, but don't ever miss the bigger picture. You can do this, and you will! Like, if I can do this ANYONE can. Find something you feel passionate about, if you asked me a year ago if I would have had my own blog and might be trying YouTube I would have laughed at you. I was so scared of peoples opinions of me I didn't do anything. Now I still care what people think, I'm not a sporty girl, I'm not interested in Music (enough to go into it) but blogging is something I love. I'm so happy I started it. It was scary, I was terrified of what people would think/say but I'm delighted.

'If your dream doesn't scare you, it isn't big enough!!'

Do the things that give you a rush of excitement (like when Tyler Oakley liked my tweet on TWITTTER LASTNIGHT FOR THE SECOND TIME my heart is still racing not gonna lie)  and something that makes you feel like you're finally doing something you can't get enough of.

That's enough of me rambling for one day, I hope this helped. I love you.

Lots of love,
Fiona xxx
P.S. Slayyyyyyy

Wednesday 23 March 2016

My Top 5 Favorite Lipsticks Rimmel, L'oreal and Dior

Hello lovelies, I decided today I would do my top five favorite lipsticks. For those who know me, you may know that I love lipstick more than I would care to admit. Without further delay, let's get into it.





From left to right:  Rouge Dior (759 Rose Palimares), Rimmel London Kate Moss (107), L'Oreal Paris (379 Sensual Rose), Rimmel London Kate Moss Nude (43) and L'Oreal Paris (371 Pink Passion).

1. Rouge Dior (759)


I love this lipstick. This is also the worst photo ever, and it is in the worst condition (kindly ignore). This is my favorite lipstick I own by far, firstly I love the color, it is the most moisturizing lipstick I own. I just love how it feels on the lips.  It lasts a really long time, and is definitely worth the splurge. 



2. Rimmel London Kate Moss (107)



I love this lipstick so much! I love how deep and beautiful the color is! At the time I didn't realize that this photo didn't focus, and it's late now so sorry about that. However, one thing I don't like about this lipstick is that it dries so quickly and can feel very dry, so if you don't like that I would definitely recommend putting a lip balm under. Personally I use Vaseline I think it works perfectly. I spoke about this briefly in my Top 10 Skincare/Makeup products. Here is the link if you want to read this: (after this of course)


3. L'Oreal Paris (379 Sensual Rose)

This is my favorite natural everyday type of a lipstick. It is so moisturizing and when we just take a moment to appreciate this color?! It lasts a long time and just is perfect. Goodjob L'Oreal!


4. Rimmel London Kate Moss (43)

This is like the grossest picture of lipstick ever, I'm sorry. But this is the Rimmel London Kate Moss (43). I really really like this! At first I thought when I bought this I wouldn't like it because it looks very muddy, but it is really gorgeous and is perfect for a natural day. I don't find this drying at all, considering that I find the 107 drying.


5. L'Oreal Paris (371 Pink Passion)

I really really love this! I don't normally go for such daring colors, but this is so so beautiful. It's striking but not too striking. It feels really good on my lips and doesn't feel sticky, but it's also moisturizing. I really like this. 



I feel like if you are looking for a very good  lipstick, you can't go wrong with Rimmel or L'Oreal they aren't expensive and are actually very good lipsticks.And both are amazing quality. They have a really good selection of colors! I would definitely go check them out!

If you are looking for an amazing lipstick there is the pricer option of going for Dior or of course other high up in the market like Mac, most definitely worth the splurge. I don't think you can judge a lipstick by the price, I have tried really expensive lipsticks that were disappointing just as I have found expensive lipsticks that are amazing! I have also tried cheaper lipsticks who were really crap, and ones who are amazing! 


Thanks so much for reading, 
Lots of Love,
                   Fiona xx

Thursday 17 March 2016

St Patrick's Day GRWM (Get Ready With Me)

Hello lovelies, I have decided to do something a little bit different today! This could be a complete fail or it could be okay, but as you can tell by the title I am doing a St Patrick's Day GRWM. I thought this would be a nice change of scenery, and if it goes horribly wrong please tell me lol. I usually see these in YouTube videos, I'm not sure if you can do a blog Get Ready With Me, but I might as well try. Agh, enough with the long intro let's get into it.

I just want to point out that I am no makeup artist (I can barley put it on) so if I do something differently to you, I'm sorry. I just do what I feel works.

Makeup: 

If you want to see how I from yuck to half decent keep on reading!



MOISTURIZER: 

I use this to mouisturise my skin! I use this after I have washed my face!
I personally really like this, if you have oily skin I feel like you won't like this at all
because it is very oily and dewy, which is why I love it. 

PRIMER:
I use this to prime my skin! This is a tester I got from Clinique, it is so so good!
I only use this for special occasions! It is the Clinque Super Universal Skin Primer.
I love the feeling of it on the skin! And I definitely feel like it makes my makeup
last longer!

FOUNDATION:
Real Techniques Buffing Brush

I got this foundation as a Christmas Present. This is the Clinique Supermoisture Hydration Foundation.
I only wear this for special occasions! I really really like this, mine is in the shade 04 Ivory.
Which is a little bit too dark, but it's not too bad! 
If you have dry skin this is literally heaven! It feels so luxurious and healthy on the skin, it doesn't
feel like other foundations where you can feel the damage it's doing to your skin,
I even forget that it is there! AND it lasts all day! Such a bonus!

The secomd picture looks very weird I'm sorry, I just wanted to show how dewy it was! I don't have 
a highlight on here!

CONCEALER: 


These are the Rimmel London Wake Me Up & Rimmel London Match Perfection concealers. 
I really love these! I use the Wake Me Up for under my eyes as a coverage for the 
bags under my eyes. I use the Match Perfection for a highlight down my nose, cheek bones and 
brow bones! Then I just use it to cover up any blemishes! It is my favorite concealer!
I then just blend this in with The Real Techniques Contour Brush. This photo is cringe but ugh.

EYEBROWS:
This is the W7 Brow Parlour. I actually really like this. Since I have already really
dark eyebrows I don't really need any more darkness, but unfortunately I have some bald patches that need 
covering as much as possible. I use the bottom left dark shade and it works wonders.
I use the top left for a wax to hold my brow in place and then I use the 
top right for a brow bone highlight.

POWDER:
This is the NO7 Light Pressed Powder, I love this. I just put this 
all over my face just to hold my makeup in place. 

BRONZER:
This is the Rimmel London Sun Bronze 022. I attempt to bronze and contour with this
it doesn't really show up on my skin but its the thought that counts! It is really nice when I know how 
to actually use it. It's very natural and lovely! It actually makes my cheekbones visible. 


EYESHADOW:
I would just like to point out that I did aim to do a festive green smokey eye, but I'm not that talented in the makeup area. Especially with such bright colors. So I just opted for my usual with a bit of a difference.
I prime my eyes with this Catrice Prime And Fine 
I have recently been using this Scandaleyes shadow stick! I have mine in the shade
Bulletproof Beige! It is so natural! I have a swatch below! I love this concept! It is so easy to use.



Over the Eye Shadow Pencil, I used the first shade of the Storm Palette. This is my favourite eyeshadow 
palette ever! It's so creamy and lasts all day. 
In the crease of my eye I used the top colour here in the W7 Shades Of Brown. 
This is the finished result! I didn't wear any eyeliner because I can't wing it. Also my 
eyebrows are in a dire need of a wax. I went in with a little bit of mascara after this which was of course Maybelline Lash Sensational. I forgot to take a picture of it. 

FINISHED RESULT: 
This was the finished result. I added some of Rimmel London Kate Moss Nude Lipstick Shade 43.


Hair: 

If you know me personally you will probably know that I am the laziest person ever when it comes to hair. Thankfully, I am lucky to have a personal hairdresser aka my twin. She literally does everything with my hair. So I slept with my hair in a plait so it would look relatively curly. 

My sister did my hair in this nice bun! I really liked it!
Ps please excuse the current and prominent state of my bedroom ugh. 



Clothes:

Top: Because I don't own many green tops, I had to buy one. This top is a khaki crop top from H&M I love it so much!
Jeans: These jeans are from River Island! Unfortunately they are really big for me and look a little bit ridicilous but regardless I still like them alot. 
Cardigan:My cardigan is from Hollister. This practically comes everywhere with me, I should probably get a new one soon..
Handbag: My handbag is from River Island again, I really like it because it is small but not too small! Is it not also the cutest thing you have ever seen?!
Shoes: I don't think the shoes go that well with the outfit, but oh well. These are Nike something shoes, I don't really know! I like them they're comfortable and kinda nice. 
Necklace: I got this as a present, so I'm really not sure where it is from. I love it so frickin much. 




That in a nutshell is practically everything I did to get ready today! I hope you enjoyed the read, and I hope it wasn't too long and boring! I hope whether you celebrated St Patrick's Day or not, that you had a great day! My day was lovely and relaxed and I spent it with lovely people! 

 I just thought I would end this blog on a happy/silly note!

Lots of Love,
                      Fiona xx

Wednesday 16 March 2016

Fake friends?!

Hello lovelies, I think it is pretty much safe to say that most of us have had fake friends. And of course having fake friends isn't the nicest experience in the world, but unfortunately like a lot of things in life we have to deal with it.
I think some friends just separate which I wouldn't necessarily class as a fake friend, or you've got someone who only uses you when they have no one else (which I hate more than words can say) and you've got someone who is lovely to your face and horrible behind your back. I'm not going to lie, I've probably been a fake friend to someone at some point, but I would never hurt someone intentionally.
I am going to tell you my methods of spotting a fake friend and dealing with a fake friend.
Also, I am so sorry I didn't do a blog post last week, my schoolwork got very intense and I literally didn't have any time.

Disclaimer: To any of my friends reading this now, this is not about you (or maybe it is) no, haha it's not. Without further delay lets get into it. 


Spotting fake friends:

This can be really tough at times. It's difficult to see something negative about a person you think so highly of. However, I do think they are definitely some warnings to look out for. 

  • Only using you when they have nobody else: I think this is the most striking. If you're in a situation where there is someone who completely ignores you when their friends are around, and they only talk to you when they have no one else! Get out of that situation. Chances are that they are using you! Nobody deserves that type of treatment, maybe these people aren't for you. Find yourself friends that actually care about you and actually want to include you. 
  • Doesn't invite you anywhere: By this I mean that they talk to you in school or work or wherever you may be, but doesn't talk to you outside of school (for example) at all. They don't text you, or they don't invite you to go places with them. This is a major red flag. 
  • Doesn't listen to you properly: Have you noticed that when you're talking to the person they only half listen or only half sympathise? This means that they honestly couldn't give a fuck. For example I was talking to someone the other day about something I was actually upset about and she literally said "oh lol". This made me feel really sad. I am glad it happened though because at least know I know she doesn't give a crap about me or my life! For me to realize this I had to talk to a really good friend of mine, and she made me realize this. (Thanks m'dear if you're reading this)
  • Doesn't include you: Do you find yourself listening to your friends conversations but whenever you try and speak they ignore you or don't reply to what you said? Or they even may forget that you're there? If yes, get out of that situation. There are going to be places that you may not find that you fit into maybe with no fault of your friends or you, sometimes that's just life. Sometimes they are going to be a certain group of people that you just don't fit into, and that's okay. Just remember to get out of that situation because if you stay there you'll hurt yourself more. 



Dealing with fake friends:

Now, that you have established that you have a fake friend(s), knowing what to do next is a tough one. I'm sure that everyone has very different ways of dealing with this. Here is what I would do: 

  • Slowly but surely part from them: by this I mean, just drift from them, if they are fake friends chances are they won't notice too much and if they are not by this they might realize that they aren't treating you the way you deserve to be treated, and may treat you better! At the end of the day you choose which one you think suits according to their reaction. 
  • Try not to get too down about it: I always say that friendship breakups are so much harder than boyfriend/girlfriend breakups because in my opinion you tell your friend everything and may know more about you depending on how long they've been your friend etc. And when you break up with a bf/gf its actually over if you get me.  You need to realize that you deserve better
  • Surround yourself with people that make you feel comfortable: Personally, the biggest trait I look for in a friend is someone who I can feel 100% me around. Where I can just say the craziest things ever and they don't judge me too much for it. That for me is perfect! For me, judging from the fake friends that I have had if I ever said anything 'weird' they would just look at me funny. GET AWAY FROM THIS PERSON. What's the point of being with someone who just makes you regret everything you say?
  • Don't go down to their levels: By this I mean do not treat them the way they treat you, it might of course give them a taste of their own medicine (which of course you can do if you want) but for me, I like to treat everyone well even if they have said bad things about me or treated me badly. This way I know that I am the bigger person and the more mature person in the situation, because really I don't have time for fake people or playing stupid back and forth games. 
  • Don't be afraid to be alone: This only applies if you have departed from these so called 'friends'. Of course if you don't spend time with these people anymore you may begin to feel a little bit alone. And that is of course understandable. Take this time to talk to new people, because who knows you could end up meeting more friends, and I hope this time around they are actually worth calling friends. Remember, never force yourself onto any group of friends, because you could suffocate them and they may not want to be your friend. Just be yourself and that is enough!

That is all my tips for dealing with 'fake friends' I really hope this helped! I know that dealing with fake friends can be a really tough situation and it can be mentally and physically draining but once you realize that you deserve so much better, everything will be okay! I really hope this helped! Also since, tomorrow is ST PATRICK'S DAY I am going to be uploading a ST PATRICK'S GRWM (Get ready with me) I'm not sure when it will be uploaded (hopefully on the 18th!) So stay tuned! Until then,

                            Lots of Love, 
                                                   Fiona xx